Focusing on Yourself
None of our consciousnesses, psyches, Souls, or spirits are intertwined or connected in any way, contrary to popular belief.
Thus, there is no such thing as a soulmate, though of course, you can like and enjoy anyone you see fit to your heart’s content, but we did not come here “linked” in any way.
“Linked” meaning any special ties. Of course we are all “linked” in all the ways that science and religion has taught us.
The genetic link between you and your family, oh absolutely.
The atoms that make up you and the entire universe, oh sure.
What it boils down to is a simple “yes or “no” question (simple because the answer is obvious).
Are you responsible for any other consciousness than your own?
Are you controlling two brains at the same time?
Well, of course not.
So no matter how compassionate we want to be to our fellow humans (there need be no reason not to) we really have no responsibility to anyone other than ourselves.
Imagine if everyone really felt this responsibility to ourselves, it is very possible that in this scenario there will hardly be any social problems.
How is that possible?
Everyone will have supreme confidence in themselves. The proliferate lack of confidence we have in society today causes a lot of knee jerk reactions that result in real chaos.
Chaos simply because there is no order.
When you realize you only have yourself in this world, instead of that being a horrible realization, it is truly the greatest news you’ll ever receive.
What Don't You Have?
What don't you get?
What is there to get?
What are you searching for?
What will you find?
What makes you so sure that is the right answer?
What makes you so sure this is the right path?
Why are you asking so many questions?
You are assuming a lot. You are assuming that you don't have the things you actually do have. so, since you have them, it begs the question what else do you need? if the things that you already have are not sufficient for you, you look for something else to fill in the gaps.
I’ll ask you to reference the several questions listed at the top.
It is a vast conspiracy (left-wing, or right-wing; whatever your fancy) to think that there is something to improve upon.
The most sinister aspect of it is that we learn in first from our parents.
“Do your homework so that you can be…”
1.) A doctor
2.) A lawyer
3.) An engineer
...and if they themselves have no particular ambitions, but still want to see their children succeed…
If you might not know your purpose, or even why you’re here in the ffirst place…
...at least you know that there is something there.
“You” exist, no mind-body dualism, no “think therefore I am”, no evolution, no creationism.
Not even any consciousness there, or just a bundle of ganglions masquerading as such.
Something is there. There is an existence, even if it’s just “existence”.
Try a little technique here I got from a satsang in Rishikesh given by Mooji; Papaji’s famous disciple…
I want you to imagine you’re about to walk into a house, and on the front porch is a rack to put all your belongings before entering.
Instead of just putting your shoes or jacket there, I want you to imagine putting “everything you know” there.
That means putting your parents, your place of origin, your schooling, your job and your title, your hopes, your dreams, your wishes, your desires.
Even your mindset; you are not entering this home to “do” something or see somebody in particular.
You are simply just entering.
After you place all of your “baggage” on the front porch, walk in; asking yourself…
What is here?
Whatever “that” is, is all you need.
When was the last time you actually felt good?
Now, I mean real good.
In previous blog posts, we talked about the benefit of being content, which does mean not feeling the exceptional heady highs of thrills.
Of course, that is its own thing you see, thrill-seeking is staring danger (or perceived danger) in the face. Whether it’s riding roller coasters, visiting haunted houses real or constructed, or skydiving, there is no happiness for miles around in these instances.
These are particular avenues for fear to show itself without causing damage. It is just like taming a tiger for a circus act; the tiger is of course still a tiger; and in that it still has its carnivorous tendencies (as we all have heard the horror stories when it goes wrong), but there is enough husbandry to domesticate this wild beast to do particular tricks.
When you seek thrills, you are training that fear that is your wild beast to do tricks; domesticating it…
...until it turns on you.
The best thing is, of course, to keep wild animals wild. Domestication notwithstanding; just because these modern creatures that we call dogs and cats are so oddly mutated and misshapen from their original wolf and big cat form just so we can have “companionship” doesn’t make it right do so.
Neither is it right to just live devoid of all feeling. Especially being devoid of all feeling when you don’t even know you are devoid of all feeling.
Life is on autopilot for you, you stop to smell not much of anything, much less the roses.
The psychiatrists say that this is a tell tale sign of depression; it’s a pandemic nowadays.
People feeling rundown, listless, and pooping out at parties, to quote the inimitable Lucille Ball.
How do you solve depression? It’s easy. What is a regular depression in nature? It’s a hole in something.
How do you “solve” a hole in something?
You fill it up.
As you fill up a normal depression in the ground, you must fill up the depression within your psyche; and not with shoddy materials no less. It must be compact so that a depression can no longer form.
How to do that?
Quite literally find that which will fill you full. That which has meaning, that which has weight and has gravity.
What is, and what is not
What was, once was what will be, and now is not.
That which shall be...
If you know what shall be, it is already in the past.
It is said that the future looks bright, with that which is whiteness and lightless, that power of which is so fully formed it cannot be gazed upon,
but if that is so, then where is the beauty if it cannot be seen?
Naked eye for naked eye,
the future is but a trick of light and shadow; a conjuring trick by an Illusionist.
It is said that the future looks dim, but even more so than dim...
Black. Darkness. Abyss.
That which is black is fullness in its entirety. A space that spans the entire volume. Yet it is called emptiness.
By whom is this fullness called emptiness? Those who care not to seek out sights and wonders yet still do by the masses; filling unfulfilled; matched rituals, the come one’s, they come, all.
Do you know? or do you not know?
The question is thus, but a question still remains.
Why do you want to question?
So you do want a problem after all.
To seek happiness, you do not want to seek it. Finding is for those who want to find, and seeking or those who want to seek; only a crossroads at a juncture,
you’ll go your way and I’ll go mine,
nary the twain shall meet.
It is said that the body needs discipline. It is to keep the soul intact; for without the form that is formless will be crushed.
What will it crush if it has no form? The crushing will be for the form that is, the substance, the matter, the body.
Putting the body on the line, the bearer of sins, olives and skull paths lead body in passion; to save the sins of not sinless souls but souls who never needed the glory of sin in the beginning. For he who loved the world so much, he had forgotten, his son, in detriment if not in folly.
To seek pleasure is to seek pain; you recoil at the statement but that part of you which knows the truth cannot be silenced.
It will speak for evermore and long lasting, if the chance is given.
A crack of the window and the cold hawkish air rushes in with import and haste.
When it gazes upon itself in the glass, darkly upon darkness, and all is darkness; but emptiness...
will it see; face to face
subsuming both self and other, and another with time for tomorrow, and tomorrow
Is tipped into this dulled place today.
But are you sure it will come? Your questions need answers, but which one comes first?
Do not think that a question begs an answer, an answer can perfectly well beg
for a question, it thanks you very much for the opportunity to take leave and go elsewhere.
Leaving you with neither the question that was asked before, and now no answer certainly remains
Though, face to face, in part...
You should know then,
as the I is now known.
When the Question Ends
When you realize that your questions have no meaning, the seeker in you will die...
...but the living part of you will begin its life.
Living is a very difficult thing to do. Don't confuse this with life being difficult.
Life and living is actually not difficult, since it requires no conscious effort on your part to live. The difficult lies in becoming alive.
Essentially being born.
Not everyone who has been birthed is actually living.
Not everyone whose heart is pumping is living.
Since life doesn't require anything, there are no questions. There is no information that you need
That you ask a question, that you pursue knowledge, that you hold on to "truth" are the tell tale signs that you are yet to live.
The process of true birth is this realization; that is the delivery
...and living in this is your adolescence, adulthood, middle and old age all at once, yet their is no time.
There is no true death for life since death is its own dimension.
You recall from the Book of Matthew where the Lord said "let the dead bury the dead".
Let life birth the living.