What don't you get?
What is there to get?
What are you searching for?
What will you find?
What makes you so sure that is the right answer?
What makes you so sure this is the right path?
Why are you asking so many questions?
You are assuming a lot. You are assuming that you don't have the things you actually do have. so, since you have them, it begs the question what else do you need? if the things that you already have are not sufficient for you, you look for something else to fill in the gaps.
I’ll ask you to reference the several questions listed at the top.
It is a vast conspiracy (left-wing, or right-wing; whatever your fancy) to think that there is something to improve upon.
The most sinister aspect of it is that we learn in first from our parents.
“Do your homework so that you can be…”
1.) A doctor
2.) A lawyer
3.) An engineer
...and if they themselves have no particular ambitions, but still want to see their children succeed…
If you might not know your purpose, or even why you’re here in the ffirst place…
...at least you know that there is something there.
“You” exist, no mind-body dualism, no “think therefore I am”, no evolution, no creationism.
Not even any consciousness there, or just a bundle of ganglions masquerading as such.
Something is there. There is an existence, even if it’s just “existence”.
Try a little technique here I got from a satsang in Rishikesh given by Mooji; Papaji’s famous disciple…
I want you to imagine you’re about to walk into a house, and on the front porch is a rack to put all your belongings before entering.
Instead of just putting your shoes or jacket there, I want you to imagine putting “everything you know” there.
That means putting your parents, your place of origin, your schooling, your job and your title, your hopes, your dreams, your wishes, your desires.
Even your mindset; you are not entering this home to “do” something or see somebody in particular.
You are simply just entering.
After you place all of your “baggage” on the front porch, walk in; asking yourself…
What is here?
Whatever “that” is, is all you need.
The final sleep.
It’s hard not to get carried away in the magnitude of it all.
But you don’t know death. You’re not getting carried away by anything you know, but by your imagination. Don’t allow yourself to become confused about what death is in your ignorance. Let’s look at it a bit, and perhaps we will learn a few things about its true nature.
Here is something that may surprise you: you already know what it’s like to die. You already know what it’s like to be dead. To be dead is to not be alive. Or, more accurately, to not perceive yourself as alive. You are always alive, and always will be, in one sense. The matter that makes you has always been here, and will remain until the end of all things, should that time ever come. Yet you only started living once you became aware of it, once you realized that a certain packet of matter was you, and was alive. So to be dead is not to disappear, or to vanish. It is simply to cease to recognize that you are here.
Before you were born you did not recognize you were here. Done. Easy. You have been dead for so long before you came alive and it was no issue to you. Every night you go to sleep you are dead to yourself. You cease to be aware of your life. This is death.
That part of your brain which creates life has been turned off, and returns in the morning. While other parts of your brain may continue to run and function, so long as you do not know it, you are experiencing death. Another person may look at you and say you are alive, but to yourself you are truly dead.
This means that our concept of life is different than the experience of being alive. We say a plant is alive, but a plant does not experience it’s own life. A plant is dead already to itself.
Organisms are not alive or dead, because this thing we call life is merely consciousness, or sensation. The extent to which we are conscious is the extent to which we are alive, and death as we know it is just the end of consciousness.
Death is not a gaping, terrifying, demon. It is a very small and quiet fellow, who will not take you, but let you release yourself when you are ready.
As peaceful as an afternoon nap.
Do not let anything disturb your peace.
First of all, it is your peace, you should not let anything or anyone take it from you without your permission.
Why does your peace get disturbed in the first place?
When one has gone through the oftentimes arduous and life-threatening journey of spiritual awakening, they will often get that sudden "eureka" moment of pure bliss and satisfaction.
To their dismay, it doesn't last.
In their disheartened state, they will question whether what they achieved was enlightenment at all, or the dreaded makyo, of the Zen Buddhist tradition where the visions of angles and supreme bliss they encounter are just figments of the imagination.
"Bliss" and "satisfaction" are just states; temporary moments of feeling slightly more evolved than one's normal feelings of "happiness", "sadness", or "anger".
Because they are more evolved, they will tend to stay longer, but even so, there will come a time in which they will be present no longer.
The question is then...
...what remains when the moments are gone?
Is there something that can always stay with you? The answer is actually yes, and that thing is contentment.
Having the ultimate knowledge of reality results in peace when you are able to see the basis behind everything around you.
This is somewhat beyond knowledge, however knowledge is there; it is feeling, intuition.
The intuition can be cultivated; this is the spiritual path.
I hope that you reach your destination soon.
To say that humans are anything special from the other countless lifeforms (and even non-lifeforms) on this planet is neglecting reality.
There is only one thing that "distinguishes" ourselves from other life.
(As an aside, I use "distinguish" to remove the hierarchy; every species of animal has something that humans can't do.)
We have the greatest developed consciousness on the face of the Earth. Consciousness itself means that we have knowledge of what we are doing, but it is interesting how most people live their lives unconsciously being jerked around by every whim despite having the greatest awareness.
Be true to your humanity and strive to develop your awareness at all times.